Well its time for a change.. Im leaving this xanga cause the names not doing it for me no more..

heres my new xanga

http://www.xanga.com/xemotionallyxwastex 

Im still doing some adjustsments to it so whatevr..

xA reason to start anew and the reason is you_!

Ah! God I want to punch a certain SOMEONE in the face. What kinda shit is this? I try to help someone but what happens...they totally disregard that and go after something that wont be there for long. And you know who you are. Im not saying cause I hope you feel bad. How could you do this? After I tried to help? Im gonna tell them too, I hope your happy, You'll never going to find that certain someone cause your always chasing after things that are temporary. Thats so fucked up. How could you? How could you do that? I wont EVER help you again. Not in that way.

 xAll the pain I put you through I wish I could take it all away_!

Anyway. I really dont know what Im gonna do with that whole situation. I m just gonna stay away from that person for a while. What a moron. I dont think they know what they have lost. You have truly lost something, and Im sorry for you, cause you'll never know. Well yesterday Glenn surprised me by showing up earlier at my house, we just laid in my bed watchign tv. It was fun, we talked about stuff, stuff that we havent for a long time that needed to be said. It was soothing. I really enjoyed it, today I went to go see dodgeball. That was a pretty  funny moive. I really just liekd when everyone would talk to Ben stilelr cause they get that (what the fuck is wrong with you ) look on their face when they'd talk to him and thats what I feel and think when I talk to people. Overall, you should go see it. Tommoorow Im gonna go with Glenn so he can drive around, sounds fun you know? Well work was boring, gonna spend the night at Amber..I think? well have to clear that up. 

xTheres no time to waste asking why_!

Well didnt do anything today. Been bored, jusat sat around and watched Dead Zone all day.  A lot of annivarasys it seems to be looking around. Glenn and Mine will be in August, our year the actaully annivasary. I never thought Id make it with anyone for this long or longer.But then again, I didnt think Glenn would like me enough to love me. I remeber the first time I saw him, clear as yesterday, It was around the beginging of 8th grade and I  was sitting at the greenline stop by the navy federal on foster, waiting to get on the bus. Anthony Higara had came up to me trying to talk to me but I wasnt to happy with him,  I really just didnt care. Well he went away and I noticed a guy staring at me(Glenn) and I thought well if hes hanging out with Anthony hes probably and asshole too so I didnt pay him much attention but when I did look at him , I got this hot feeling, like it just washed itself all over me and he was and is still very acttractive to me. Well we rode the bus and Glenn kept looking back at me and anthony was asking willie to ask me questions, I think Willie was gettin tired of that. I got off the bus at my stop and all I kept thinking about was who was that guy and will I ever see him again. Of course I did and everytime I saw him, the same wrming feeling would wash over me. Then a ex friend of mine told him that I thought he was hot, lol. Justin later asked me about that, lol I felt so embarrased, but thats what lead to my longest and most beautiful relantionship with anyone in my whole life, I love him with every ounce of my body.  Even though I'll get mad at him, mostly cause Ill be too...emotional..lol many people could tell you but he makes me happy. Something no one else really could. I love him.. I want to do something really special for our annivsary though, just not sure what. Its a wonder how he can put up with my ...everything for this long, Im glad he has, I'll love you Glenn Scott Forcier Jr. till the end of time.

xDont depend on me to ever follow through on anything_!

Well I had Ruth stay last night. It was fun. We stayed up watching movies and eating junk food.We also played rummy and used pixe stix for ante. But for some odd reason I lost alot..mmm..I met her up at the px and had to walk up that fucking hill by the soft ball fields past the barraks.you know the hill that the 6 shuttle comes up on ..hate that fucking hill with a fiery passion. I waited around in the px till her shuttle came. She kept telling me that with my hair cut I look like Alyssa Milano(shes Pheope off Charmed). I dont think so but then Glenn said I do a bit..sure.. We waited aroudn for the stupid sghuttle to come and oh god it was packed.   Then when we got to Kinser we went around back to see who was all there..Bunch of people I dont even know and I've been here longer then all of them, Justin and Shawn were there though. But we went home and we watched Death Watch. Interesting movie. It was basicaly happening in 1917and this company gets stuck behind enemy territoy and They capture a man and theres the langauge bariror but there dead corpses all around and but there in a trench so they kinda know why theres so much bodies. Well something weird going on and this guy was looking at pictures of naked women and he started jacking off (the people who have some kind of sexual stuff going on always die) well he hears a noise and goes to see whats going on and see 3 guys in the distance but there heads are turned to the side and arms out well when he gets closer he see thats there bodys are being held up by barbed wire and its coming in there skin and out there eye sockets so he turns but one of the bodys move and he ends up with the same fate..sucks well after that basically the trench starts playing with there minds, they'll here bombs ogoing off men screaming bloody murder and one by one they die either becuase someone else went mad and killed themselfs or something, the worst was when the preist gone crazy and started killing people. There was this kid in it ..teenager actually well he went p to the priset and told him not to shot the guy but the preist told him to kill him or he'd do bad things blah blah you know.normal talk but the  kid wouldnt do it so the guy just pulled out his gun and shot the guy and the preist was looking at the --what the hell do you guys care right? Well in the end the kid walks away cause he was always trying to save the prisoner(the prisoner was basically the evil thing or whatever) We watched Eurotrip..it was..eh stupid.. too many peniese thats for sure.lol and then we watchecd club drread ..who should alot of nuddity but eh it was dumb to the killer would die.lol..Then we went to bed at 4 but didnt actally fall alseep to later so..mm Woke up and met Glenn and Justin at the px and came back and watched The Perfect Score..That movie was ok...Sterotypical and all that..who really cares right? NONE of them used the cheats after all that work Id be like screw the ethics Im gettin in a good college withough trying..But the stoner dude or somethign gave the cheats to the other stoners..whatever..he was the only funyn thing in there too much of it wa predictable buyt what do you expect? Rode the shuttle with Ruth so she could catch the shuittle to Courtney and then I bought the secound season of Dead Zone cause thats an awesome series! And thats it basically.  It wouldve been cool if Amber could have stayed but next time I'll have both you guys stay and it will happened.lol..

xI will always love you_!

Today was pretty good, except for two minor mishaps that come from the same FAMILY! hm hm Justin hm hm Glenn hmhm lol Anyway Im over that. Amber told em today that she couldnt stay which is kinda bumish but hey Ruths staying so Thats good, just wish amber could stayed too..now im gonan be stuck all alone with ruth.ewwlol jm Ruths a werido but shes my weirdo. Ah I sat in Glenns van with his mom and stepdad while he drove around practiticing for his license. Talked to Ruth today on the phone..gonna meet up on foster later tommorow and come back to my house and eat a bunch of junk food, our male bashing night..spunds good yeah?

xJust dont forget me_!

I got a hair cut! At first I wasnt soo ..happy about it but then it grew on me . I actaully look soemwhat good in it.Its alot cooler now too. I still look funny though. You can see too much of my face! Im gonna dye my hair though. Maybe a pink color or streak..whatevr or just a purplish black i dont know yet.